Today was a prelude.  Try as I might to 'live for the moment', my mind was not on today's 14 mile hike.  It was on tomorrow.  You see, I have this challenge looming large over my head that is truly daunting: Four thirty mile day hikes, one of which I have to delay because the road to Clingman's Dome isn't open yet.
I hiked to the northern boundary of Great Smoky Mountain Park today (Wednesday, March 7th).  And all I could do was look up that dark tunnel of trail as it plunges into the park and shudder.  A sense of dread and trepidation coursed up and down my spine as I stood there at Davenport Gap.  And it will not go away until I face the fear.  I feel like Dr. Livingston, about to plunge into deepest, darkest Africa.  Frankly I'm scared, worried, intimidated.  Tomorrow could make or break my plans.  Tomorrow I must be larger than life, hike farther than I've ever hiked in one day, and come back alive.  It will be a 32 mile day, and the weather looks to be deteriorating - I could be finishing the day in the dark and in pouring rain.
Logically, I know I am capable of this.  One step at a time.  GSMNP is no trackless African jungle, it just feels that way standing on the brink, as I am tonight.  It's actually advertised as well-graded trail, never more than 15%.  And I won't have to hike the whole thing in the dark, although somehow that's how it feels.
Well, having set up tomorrow's challenge, I suppose I ought to get down to the business of describing today.  It didn't seem to present a theme of its own, perhaps because I was so preoccupied with tomorrow, and also because I did not meet a single soul out on the trail.  But it was still a nice hike.
One of the huge advantages of hiking the trail out-and-back every day is that you can pick turn-around points that you'd love to visit twice.  Today that point was Snowbird Mountain, the one with the gleaming white navigation tower on top.  As I returned today it was windier, and there were enough clouds to cover the highest peaks of the Smokies from view (that didn't help my frame of mind regarding tomorrow).  I also got to look wistfully back to Max Patch one more time.
Then it was back south, under I-40 and on to Davenport Gap and my confrontation with the unknown.  That southward leg featured a truly first-class walk beside a boldly cascading stream, the sort of trail setting that always delights me and will never get old no matter how far I hike.
Maybe that's the hook I can hang my hat on tonight -- The Smokies, after all, are a National Park.  The scenery ought to be top notch.  I know the vistas will please.  With any luck there will be cascading streams as well.  Time to set aside the feeling that this is a hazing - a gauntlet to be endured - and just soak up the beauty.
My trail name, 'Seeks It', partly derives from the widely distributed AT sticker, which says around its lower edge: "A footpath for those who seek fellowship with the wilderness."  Yes ... yes ... I am one who seeks that.  I am here seeking the serenity of such deep and unreachable places.  I am here on the brink of the Smokies precisely for that experience.  Bring it on!
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Here's the mapped route of today's hike, with link to many more photos:
AT Day 61 - To the edge of the Smokies at EveryTrail
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